There's No Glory without a Sacrifice

Goshhh...It's Lazy Monday again....After a long weekend, had to drag myself out of bed to start another week. Being a SAHM does not mean that there's no chores and errands to be done. Learned that the hard way!. :P

Back then, when I was part of the workaholic crowd, I used to imagine that being a SAHM would meant having nothing to do and no objectives or goals to achieve. Well, as they say, you never know what lies right around the corner... Know what? I realised that I actually do not have enough time! 24 hours a day is not enough! Apart from the chores, there's the kids and their informal education, the part-time business, the friends, the neighbours, the extended families etc etc. Of course, the last of the list would be me. What do I get out of it?..... Took me some time to get the answer..... Love. Yes. The answer is love. I am able to give love and receive more love.

I used to be angry with myself for being what I have became. To give up things that matter. To forgo things that I believed in. Was I in the position to be angry? Do I have that right? We were once taught to be good girls, study hard, obtain good grades, get hold of a decent job, get married to the right guys, be good wives and mothers, and ...... That's it?!. Was that the full circle? Or did they assumed that we will finally grow up and get some sense to do what's best next? How come no one taught us that life itself would be such a hard work, especially emotionally? We have to give, in order to receive.

Nevertheless, I eventually learned that by chucking away my obsession to climb up the career ladder and being at home 24/7 had made everyone good. I have the privilege to attend to everyone's need. Most satisfyingly, I have the ability to extend a helping hand to those who seek for it. I suppose it is my obligation to everyone to make myself available.

As I recall my childhood days, I can still remember that each family institution has its own functional sub units where apart from our parents and siblings, we have extended family members like grandparents, aunties, uncles, cousins etc, whom we look up to. Each individual, regardless how busy or crazy their lives were, will religiously function as who they were supposed to function.

Nowadays, everyone is so engrossed with themself. Things are mostly taken for granted. The new generation no longer sees or hears from their uncles or aunties, or even grandparents, more than twice or three times a year. Everyone stays far apart from each other due to urbanisation and better living, I guess. When I was young, I couldn't even go to the sundry shop without bumping into one of my relatives!!( Thinking back, how suffocating could that have been!) Well, there is always pro and cons to the situation.

All that we want in life is merely just happiness. How we function, is up to each individual to analyse, adopt and conduct. If we don't function how and what we are supposed to, then, eventually in time, the function will 'find' us, whether we like it or not!. My best guess, that is what I am living through now. Like it? Yes, I do.